6:37am - its time to sleep now. i should be sleeping now, wondering what are my dreams?
Jet-lag is not an excuse, im damn fking tired now, just that im reluctant to go to bed. lol~
i just got back from London - Abu Dhabi (transit for 2 hours) - Kuala Lumpur - Ipoh
before that i went to Europe with my classmates and so-called "bagpack" to Spain and Portugal, and back to London again.
well, many things happened during this trip. Happy, sad, frowned, stress, disappointment, love, appreciation, sicked, gratitude, truth, faith, anger, pissed off, ugliness, sweet, bitter, tired, surprises, sour, etc..
enjoyed? well, i guess not really.
i was sicked and suffered for 1 week in Europe. but then, i see truth, trust, love and faith.
things keep changing and keep coming on and on. its never ending.
i saw the ugliness of mankind; yet i saw the love and faith from a true heart.
disappointments is like a snowball, rolling and rolling, bigger and bigger;
seriously i D.O.N.T. like this feeling. i HATE disappointments, especially from close ones; but it kept on annoy me and i just couldnt help it.
i couldnt help to make the situation better; but what i did was NOT to make the situation worsen. but.. it didnt really went well.
im NOT an optimistic person, i can be quite negative sometimes though. but i've learnt that its no use to be sad over something that is not worth your tears.
"Never cry over someone/something that doesnt worth your tears"
and im trying to be Positive. i know its for my own good. i know i shouldnt always recall the past, especially the ones that hurt you. but i couldnt help it, unless not until i find out the truth, and understand why people do so?
well, i guess i wont be able to have the answer until the problems are discussed.
to keep on reminding myself to be positive, and to love the ones who love me, to enjoy my life, to stay happy always, to be happy for people who wants me to be happy, and to stop thinking negatively.
the good news is that, through all these things happening since the past 1 month, my experiences are value added, learnt and faced new things. its seriously a LESSON of life!
Life is Never a bed of roses, i know.
till then, its 7.11am now
and im suppose to go to bed, yeah - to go to dreamland
love you sorry and THANK YOU
