focus focus focus!!!

my status:
basically, im sort of in a:
gloomy mood,
blurrr mood,
sleepy mood

no classes,
no lecturers,
no tutorials to attend
end up staying at home everyday,
every hour,
every minute...

im gonna ground myself home
im gonna study
im gonna focus

tons of notes n books,
loads of papers,
all over my table n my bed


im gonna stay away fr my beloved lappy,
OFF msn,
OFF FB,
sory i won let my hp on SILENT mode

helo!!!

stay focus!!
stay awake!!
pay attention!!!

and

STOP dreaming!!
SToP sleeping!!
STOP blurring!!!
zzzz...

cheers n gud luck to all!!
add oil!! 加油!! gambateh noh!!

追忆

你们一个一个脸孔
一个一个动作
一句一句话
都不停在我脑海里
像录影机不停地playback
不断地重播重播又重播

经过那熟悉的街 想起你了
聊起那熟悉的口头禅 想起你了
经过那熟悉的高楼大夏 想起你了
路过那熟悉的plaza 想起你了
走着那熟悉的广场 想起你了
吃着那熟悉的糕点 想起你了
读者那熟悉的小说 想起你了
喷着那熟悉的烟圈 想起你了
听见那熟悉的笑声 想起你了
播着那熟悉的歌曲 想起你了
吃着那熟悉的美食-豆腐花 想起你了
翻回那熟悉的相本 想起你了
享受着那熟悉的味道-durian的味道 想起你了
哼着那熟悉的旋律 想起你了
欣赏着那熟悉的情景 想起你了
拿起相机拍下熟悉的画面 想起你了
响起那熟悉的铃声 想起你了
喝着那熟悉的饮料 想起你了
讲着那熟悉的话 想起你了
看到那熟悉的牌子Guess Swatch Fossil 想起你了
唱着那熟悉的曲韵 想起你了
下着那熟悉的雨展现出熟悉的彩虹 想起你了
经过那熟悉的prima露台 想起你了
看着那熟悉的夜景-星月相伴 想起你了

想起了许多许多
闭上眼睛后，这回忆不停闪着闪着
你 你 你 你 和 你
有如puzzle 一块一块拼起我的生活 让我生活过的精彩些 让我领悟了许多
带有兴奋、快感、刺激、悲伤、激情、幸福的味道 却忘了你那熟悉的味道

我站在记忆的入口
却找不回你的踪迹
剩下的只有你的影子
模糊的视线
我不晓得 你还在吗？
当习惯靠着孤单
让我慢慢的 渐渐的
让我懂得怎么去遗忘

我忘了是怎么开始
当初的你和我
那天真简单的日子
我们都自由自在

寻找记忆
自我陶醉
执迷不悔

你 曾踏入我的记忆里吗？

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p/s:
你 你 你 你 和 你，
一块一块的puzzle,
缺一不可，
都属于我的回忆，
刻在心里；
永远铭记我们一起走过的日子

Tears For the Eagle, as promised...

As promised, here it is:

An Eagle, as perceived, is a tough and strong creature.
It hovers above the sky, observing and locking target to its prey,
and when the target is set, it spreads its wings and fly~~
Finally, its sharp claws catches the prey and kills it.
It has a sharp and fierce eyesight,
which brings out its own personality - fierce, cruel, and is certain towards achieving its goals.

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i RESPECT that!

i RESPECT those with attitude, those who respect others, and respect ownself.

Those who dont respect themselves doenst deserve MY respect.

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Similarly, i respect the Eagle.

The story begins here, this little Eagle was born in a nest.
But this nest is quite complicated, yet unsafe.
However, this Eagle survived thru many circumstances and
struggle in many many conflicts as it grew up.

Learning to FLY is a tough one.
After many attempts and trials, finally it spread it wings and fly.
Fly, fly up high in the sky.
But due to air pressure, off-balanced, bad weather, storms and typhoons, the eagle fell down.

It fell down to a critical stage, and suffered from serious injury. ouch!!

Tho, it still struggle to get up and heal itself.
With the aid from others, the fallen Eagle raised up again,
with a tougher personality, a positive mindset and with wiser decision making skills.

Im personally impressed with the Eagle,
tho sumtimes it might make silly mistakes,
it might choose the wrong path,
it might have bad behaviors,
but, who doenst have their PAST?
who doenst make mistakes?
who are always GOOD?
nope, right?

Always remember,
i have Faith with you,
its deep from my heart,
*finger crossed*
Do what u tink is right,
Tink wat u wana tink,

because,
the Wind is not only from ONE direction,
it comes from MANY directions,
assisting and supporting the Eagle,
lifting it up high,
to achieve the goal that its pursuing,
to go thru all obstacles,
until the goal is achieved.

Out of all difficulties, makes Miracle =))

Appreciation

Suddenly something came into my mind.
Suddenly Images flashes in my eyes.
Suddenly im Inspired to write.

I've learned that we must be W I S E in sharing your stories. Stories as in, those which are really private and confidential. Stories that you wouldnt want the public to know, your loved ones, your family and friends, or u dont even want anyone to know that.

Being W I S E as in, you choose the RIGHT people to share with, you choose the person who is TRUSTWORTHY to share with, you choose people who are LOYAL and wont SPREAD OUT a word, you choose people who have FAITH in you...

To be logical, to be realistic, to be honest, other than that, DONT simply share something PERSONAL to any of your friends. It's either they will spread out, have different perception (for something bad u did), doesnt bother your situation, backstab you, or worst more - they will leave you..

There's something you shudnt know, but someone told you about me. I TRUSTED that someone, thats why im being honest. But, in return, this someone, a.k.a Carrot, told you about my stories.. This made alot difference between you and me. Carrot spread out the news, more and more people know this. Carrot had ruined my reputation.

Im disappointed with Carrot, seriously. Its not worth my honesty anymore, its not worth my help anymore, its not worth my faith, ANYMORE!!!! By the way, i've already GAVE UP on Carrot, long ago. No point, it's Pointless!! I know i cant control anyone from being spreading any damn thing to others, but hello, please THINK before you ACT, please RESPECT me.

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Here there are other people who step into my life. Again, i shared my things. I dont know whether i will end up in the same condition or not, but at least, i TRUST them, i have FAITH in them. I gained alot from them, seriously, the motivation, the inspiration , and the POSITIVE thinking. This is what i value them apart from others. They are indeed, INDIFFERENT from others.

At least, i found someone, few buddies, who will scold me, for my own sake! I know what im doing, just sometimes, i cant fight the compulsion; im defeated emotionally. That was PAST TENSE, its HISTORY. The Foolishness shud not be repeated again in future, therefore, not to wory k? =))

But honestly, the Passion and Affection, really conquered my soul. Im defenceless, like a defenceless child while facing all these. I cant fight this feeling anymore.

Im Not purposely being materialistic, just we need to accept the fact that - things shudnt be simply exposed to someone. Else, you will LOSE everything. It's sooo damn true!! Im just being rational and not simply emotional,
I know it might hurt u guys, that used to be by my side, as im always be at your side, to hear me say this. But,

better to be WISE than sorry

i really appreciate you guys. =)

Sometimes, words doenst mean alot. The feel of touched is everything. The feel of being care, is much more important! Because these are emotions which couldnt be counted or quantify, it's an expression of love and care..
(from G.I. JOE lol~~)

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To Carrot who disappointed me, thanks for showing me your true self, and lost my faith and trust on you.
Now i've learned something.

To ALL the other, that you shud know who you guys are, thanks for accompanying me, thru my ups and downs.
Now i've gained appreciation and ya'all are MUCH appreciated. Love you~~~ ^^

=T H A N K Y O U=

Memory

记忆
该留在何处?

记忆
有甜酸苦辣
有喜有悲

快乐的
伤心的
遗憾的
后悔的
甜蜜的
痛苦的
心痛的
种种、种种.....

记忆
可以被储存
可以被删去

试着 选择
选择哪些记忆该留下
选择哪些记忆该离去

照片
日记簿
录影
能记载发生的事
能让人回忆往事

可是
他们都不能永久地保留记忆

记忆
最好就是保留在
心里

回忆
是七彩天空
一片充满色彩的天空

永远都留在心里。。。。
不会忘掉。。。。

lonely......

its been quite a long time since my last post..
Was super duper busy for the past few weeks.

...assignments . assignments . assignments . assignments...

reli have sleepless nites. and finally, i was sicked!

:: flu+fever+runny nose+sore throat ::

thank god, im recover now. but still, i have NO appetite since i was sick. sad =(

thx to those who helped me wen im sicked, took care of me, and gave me medicine =)

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suddenly i felt im so so sooo lonely.

suddenly waves of weird feelings scrambled in my mind.

suddenly i lost my smile, my laughter...

when u see me laugh, i also dono whether its my true laughter, with happiness?
or its just a "reaction" according to the situation?

i would be the one, laughing so loudly, but deep inside, isit true that im happy?

yea i would be the loudest one, hahaha... but.............


i dont know what to do?
i dont know what i want?
i dont know what is this?

im just, just.... L O N E L Y.........