*SpeCiaL GreEtiNgs*

:: its 19 Sept 09 ::

here i wana send some wishes and blessings to someone special
on this day, this special someone has grew 1 year older
1 year older; 1 year wiser ;)

went over to celebrate with her
was supposed to be a *SuRPRiSE* !!!
hohoho~~
and I DID it!!!
yeahhhh XD XD

was waiting for the sTaR to come home
was hiding somewhere in the house
our hiding place was being noticed
hide again - hide hide hide!!!

*Happy Birthday to YoU;
Happy Birthday to yOu;
Happy Birthday to Bao Bao;
Happy Birthday to YOU~~*

candles are blown
wishes are made
photogragh is taken

as usual - candle biting ceremony

hide hide hide
jump jump jump

*ooops!* !!Intruder Alert!! *SiXth Sense*
Joe FAILED >.<

-photo session again-

hide hide hide
video video video

candle bitten out
*yiii?? everything is fine..
cool man~~*

!!!POP!!!

somebody jumped out from BEHIND
PUSHED & SMASHED her face
like SMACKING a BasketBall
.......
.......
.......

and

*wooooosh~~ POP!!*

HEAD-SMASH!!!
SMACK-DOWN!!!

wooohoooo~~~~
i've DONE it!!!!!

face is smashed onto the cake
Cake is flatten and.....
u're not gonna imagine how it looked like~ >.<

2nd time
3rd time
4th time
5th time
.....
....
.....
.....
N-times~~~

the cake Fall in Love with the Face!!

smack down
smashed cake
smack down
smashed cake
....
...
...
face is smashed with cake
and turn turn turn
up and down
from left to right
diagonally
horizontally
vertically

muaahahahahahah XD

revenge??
no C.H.A.N.C.E

photo taking session again
present opening session
a shirt!!
a wallet!!
nice~~

lastly
wishing this special someone a Merry Birthday
May Beautiful moments be with u owes
May ur day as Delightful as the sun
May ur Wishes will bloom like a flower
and May Health stay with u owes
stay hapi
stay cool
stay hiong
but don stay BLURRrrrrrrr
;)

*H-A-P-P-Y B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y*

Dedicated to DeVil oF D M@iDeN

From T-Sue ; )

Rain Rain Rain....

its raining again
in rainy days
i love to sleep
cz it's just too comfortable to sleep in my bed
hugging my fav pillow + soft toy
covering myself with my warm blanket
curling inside my blanket
sleeping tightly and
dreaming happily in Neverland - where nobody grows up >.<

in rainy days
i like to walk in the rain
cz nobody knows im crying
let the rain shed away my tears
tear that leave traces behind
traces that have another story behind
just wash thru with the rain~~~

in rainy days
i like to play with the water
dirty water in the pool holes
stepping in so hard and
splashing it all over like nobody business
=p

in rainy days
i like to stand by the window
or
stand outside my balcony
feel the breeze
feel the wind
blowing through my face
hair are messed up
but i just like it this way
looking down the streets
peple walking by
people running away from the rain
people crossing the road
cars passing by
water splashing everywhere

in rainy days
it brings my mood down
it makes me moody
moody cz of the weather is cold and sky is dark
it makes me think of many memories
sad and moody

in rainy days
it makes me feel happy, too~
cz i will think of someone

after the rain
a rainbow will appear
and this shows how beautiful the world is
just like how i believe in miracles......

幻想~

很想很想
黄昏时分
在沙滩上漫步
看着夕阳落下

或者
蔚蓝天空
鱼肚白的早晨
坐在沙滩上
迎着黎明的到来

或者
深夜人静处
在沙滩上漫步
听着海浪声
喜欢清静的感觉

走着走着
微风袭来
感觉多么清爽
多么的舒服

就是喜欢蓝天
就是喜欢白云
就是喜欢海边
就是喜欢沙滩
就是喜欢 大 自 然

离开城市
繁忙的城市
充满压力陷阱危机的城市

宁静的生活
无忧无虑的生活
自己的生活


啊~~~
别再发夢了啦 *_*

090909

2009.09.09

once in a lifetime

stay happy everyone =)

live happily and cherish every moment

appreciate the people and things around you

appreciate those who L 0 V E you

appreciate those that you L O V 3

::Addictive::

"addictive" this word,i heard it from a series

it was used to be a brand name for a Perfume

personally, im vv interested in this word "addictive"

now, im addicted..

addicted to it..

its Addictive...

玫瑰
你就快枯萎了
玫瑰
你一片一片地
落下你美丽的花瓣

玫瑰
你再没有勇气活下去了
你再也没有意思了
你再也没有价值了
玫瑰
你舍得吗?
你甘心吗?

玫瑰

你的氧气呢?
是谁
是谁把你的玻璃盖打开
让你无法继续活下去
玫瑰
你就快枯萎了

there is one thing im similar with the rose

once its DEAD in me, meaning its gone

when its DEAD, meaning it will last like this forever

not gonna be REVIVED

im trying not to let it die...

if i want something, i will try my best to get it,
altho it might seems hard or tough,
i will achieve wat i want;

similarly, if i dont want something,
i will not get myself involved in it,
i am very clear with what i want,

i BELIEVE in Miracles.........

inspired from : "Addictive"; The Enchanted Rose

JJMMCCSS

突然发觉
总是离不开
MMJJSSCCSSMMJJ???

还是围绕着
SSMMCCJJ

很奇妙
很得意
很可爱

哈哈哈哈哈哈

maybe its my destiny???

My beloved destiny,
im coming for you~~

hohohoho~~~

-M-J-S-C-S-M-J-C-M-S-J-C-J-S-M-J-C-M-S-M-J-S-C-M-J-C-M-S-C-M-J-S-C-C-J-M-S-S-J-M-

Fallin'

经过研究
种种迹象
都显示
係PosiTive

但係
种种迹象
有变化
亦有可能
係NegaTive

原来
我都会紧张
我都会担心
我都会在乎


结果会係点样

时辰一日未到
都唔会乱黎
唔会茫作判断

係神係鬼
讲真 我唔识分
等卑人打救吧了~~~

London Bridge is Falling Down,
falling down,
falling down

Tissue is Falling Down,
falling down,
falling down,
Falling down into a nest, a hole, a longkang....
a trap ,

perhaps???
*_*

focus focus focus!!!

my status:
basically, im sort of in a:
gloomy mood,
blurrr mood,
sleepy mood

no classes,
no lecturers,
no tutorials to attend
end up staying at home everyday,
every hour,
every minute...

im gonna ground myself home
im gonna study
im gonna focus

tons of notes n books,
loads of papers,
all over my table n my bed


im gonna stay away fr my beloved lappy,
OFF msn,
OFF FB,
sory i won let my hp on SILENT mode

helo!!!

stay focus!!
stay awake!!
pay attention!!!

and

STOP dreaming!!
SToP sleeping!!
STOP blurring!!!
zzzz...

cheers n gud luck to all!!
add oil!! 加油!! gambateh noh!!

追忆

你们一个一个脸孔
一个一个动作
一句一句话
都不停在我脑海里
像录影机不停地playback
不断地重播重播又重播

经过那熟悉的街 想起你了
聊起那熟悉的口头禅 想起你了
经过那熟悉的高楼大夏 想起你了
路过那熟悉的plaza 想起你了
走着那熟悉的广场 想起你了
吃着那熟悉的糕点 想起你了
读者那熟悉的小说 想起你了
喷着那熟悉的烟圈 想起你了
听见那熟悉的笑声 想起你了
播着那熟悉的歌曲 想起你了
吃着那熟悉的美食-豆腐花 想起你了
翻回那熟悉的相本 想起你了
享受着那熟悉的味道-durian的味道 想起你了
哼着那熟悉的旋律 想起你了
欣赏着那熟悉的情景 想起你了
拿起相机拍下熟悉的画面 想起你了
响起那熟悉的铃声 想起你了
喝着那熟悉的饮料 想起你了
讲着那熟悉的话 想起你了
看到那熟悉的牌子Guess Swatch Fossil 想起你了
唱着那熟悉的曲韵 想起你了
下着那熟悉的雨展现出熟悉的彩虹 想起你了
经过那熟悉的prima露台 想起你了
看着那熟悉的夜景-星月相伴 想起你了

想起了许多许多
闭上眼睛后，这回忆不停闪着闪着
你 你 你 你 和 你
有如puzzle 一块一块拼起我的生活 让我生活过的精彩些 让我领悟了许多
带有兴奋、快感、刺激、悲伤、激情、幸福的味道 却忘了你那熟悉的味道

我站在记忆的入口
却找不回你的踪迹
剩下的只有你的影子
模糊的视线
我不晓得 你还在吗？
当习惯靠着孤单
让我慢慢的 渐渐的
让我懂得怎么去遗忘

我忘了是怎么开始
当初的你和我
那天真简单的日子
我们都自由自在

寻找记忆
自我陶醉
执迷不悔

你 曾踏入我的记忆里吗？

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p/s:
你 你 你 你 和 你，
一块一块的puzzle,
缺一不可，
都属于我的回忆，
刻在心里；
永远铭记我们一起走过的日子

Tears For the Eagle, as promised...

As promised, here it is:

An Eagle, as perceived, is a tough and strong creature.
It hovers above the sky, observing and locking target to its prey,
and when the target is set, it spreads its wings and fly~~
Finally, its sharp claws catches the prey and kills it.
It has a sharp and fierce eyesight,
which brings out its own personality - fierce, cruel, and is certain towards achieving its goals.

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i RESPECT that!

i RESPECT those with attitude, those who respect others, and respect ownself.

Those who dont respect themselves doenst deserve MY respect.

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Similarly, i respect the Eagle.

The story begins here, this little Eagle was born in a nest.
But this nest is quite complicated, yet unsafe.
However, this Eagle survived thru many circumstances and
struggle in many many conflicts as it grew up.

Learning to FLY is a tough one.
After many attempts and trials, finally it spread it wings and fly.
Fly, fly up high in the sky.
But due to air pressure, off-balanced, bad weather, storms and typhoons, the eagle fell down.

It fell down to a critical stage, and suffered from serious injury. ouch!!

Tho, it still struggle to get up and heal itself.
With the aid from others, the fallen Eagle raised up again,
with a tougher personality, a positive mindset and with wiser decision making skills.

Im personally impressed with the Eagle,
tho sumtimes it might make silly mistakes,
it might choose the wrong path,
it might have bad behaviors,
but, who doenst have their PAST?
who doenst make mistakes?
who are always GOOD?
nope, right?

Always remember,
i have Faith with you,
its deep from my heart,
*finger crossed*
Do what u tink is right,
Tink wat u wana tink,

because,
the Wind is not only from ONE direction,
it comes from MANY directions,
assisting and supporting the Eagle,
lifting it up high,
to achieve the goal that its pursuing,
to go thru all obstacles,
until the goal is achieved.

Out of all difficulties, makes Miracle =))

Appreciation

Suddenly something came into my mind.
Suddenly Images flashes in my eyes.
Suddenly im Inspired to write.

I've learned that we must be W I S E in sharing your stories. Stories as in, those which are really private and confidential. Stories that you wouldnt want the public to know, your loved ones, your family and friends, or u dont even want anyone to know that.

Being W I S E as in, you choose the RIGHT people to share with, you choose the person who is TRUSTWORTHY to share with, you choose people who are LOYAL and wont SPREAD OUT a word, you choose people who have FAITH in you...

To be logical, to be realistic, to be honest, other than that, DONT simply share something PERSONAL to any of your friends. It's either they will spread out, have different perception (for something bad u did), doesnt bother your situation, backstab you, or worst more - they will leave you..

There's something you shudnt know, but someone told you about me. I TRUSTED that someone, thats why im being honest. But, in return, this someone, a.k.a Carrot, told you about my stories.. This made alot difference between you and me. Carrot spread out the news, more and more people know this. Carrot had ruined my reputation.

Im disappointed with Carrot, seriously. Its not worth my honesty anymore, its not worth my help anymore, its not worth my faith, ANYMORE!!!! By the way, i've already GAVE UP on Carrot, long ago. No point, it's Pointless!! I know i cant control anyone from being spreading any damn thing to others, but hello, please THINK before you ACT, please RESPECT me.

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Here there are other people who step into my life. Again, i shared my things. I dont know whether i will end up in the same condition or not, but at least, i TRUST them, i have FAITH in them. I gained alot from them, seriously, the motivation, the inspiration , and the POSITIVE thinking. This is what i value them apart from others. They are indeed, INDIFFERENT from others.

At least, i found someone, few buddies, who will scold me, for my own sake! I know what im doing, just sometimes, i cant fight the compulsion; im defeated emotionally. That was PAST TENSE, its HISTORY. The Foolishness shud not be repeated again in future, therefore, not to wory k? =))

But honestly, the Passion and Affection, really conquered my soul. Im defenceless, like a defenceless child while facing all these. I cant fight this feeling anymore.

Im Not purposely being materialistic, just we need to accept the fact that - things shudnt be simply exposed to someone. Else, you will LOSE everything. It's sooo damn true!! Im just being rational and not simply emotional,
I know it might hurt u guys, that used to be by my side, as im always be at your side, to hear me say this. But,

better to be WISE than sorry

i really appreciate you guys. =)

Sometimes, words doenst mean alot. The feel of touched is everything. The feel of being care, is much more important! Because these are emotions which couldnt be counted or quantify, it's an expression of love and care..
(from G.I. JOE lol~~)

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To Carrot who disappointed me, thanks for showing me your true self, and lost my faith and trust on you.
Now i've learned something.

To ALL the other, that you shud know who you guys are, thanks for accompanying me, thru my ups and downs.
Now i've gained appreciation and ya'all are MUCH appreciated. Love you~~~ ^^

=T H A N K Y O U=

Memory

记忆
该留在何处?

记忆
有甜酸苦辣
有喜有悲

快乐的
伤心的
遗憾的
后悔的
甜蜜的
痛苦的
心痛的
种种、种种.....

记忆
可以被储存
可以被删去

试着 选择
选择哪些记忆该留下
选择哪些记忆该离去

照片
日记簿
录影
能记载发生的事
能让人回忆往事

可是
他们都不能永久地保留记忆

记忆
最好就是保留在
心里

回忆
是七彩天空
一片充满色彩的天空

永远都留在心里。。。。
不会忘掉。。。。

lonely......

its been quite a long time since my last post..
Was super duper busy for the past few weeks.

...assignments . assignments . assignments . assignments...

reli have sleepless nites. and finally, i was sicked!

:: flu+fever+runny nose+sore throat ::

thank god, im recover now. but still, i have NO appetite since i was sick. sad =(

thx to those who helped me wen im sicked, took care of me, and gave me medicine =)

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suddenly i felt im so so sooo lonely.

suddenly waves of weird feelings scrambled in my mind.

suddenly i lost my smile, my laughter...

when u see me laugh, i also dono whether its my true laughter, with happiness?
or its just a "reaction" according to the situation?

i would be the one, laughing so loudly, but deep inside, isit true that im happy?

yea i would be the loudest one, hahaha... but.............


i dont know what to do?
i dont know what i want?
i dont know what is this?

im just, just.... L O N E L Y.........

reporting.....

since i came bac fr ipoh, i started the war with IDA individual assignment. -.- i was totally blank n dono whr to start for tis bloddy assignment. sigh~~~

19 July Sun
- start doing IDA : 30%
- enjoying my Cheesecake oso..haha.. thx man~~

Secret Recipe : Fine Quality Cakes


Choco Chese


Indulgence Cake

20 July Mon
-went to work at Bukit Jalil Stadium stratight after class

++ MU rawwwwssss~~~~~ ^^ wow! ++

21 July Tues
- continue with bloddy IDA
- rainy day - rush to GK with Brian, eat chendol in cold weather, syok!!
- do do do IDA : 58% (no time to Dream, as i used to be)

look at the sky, makes me calm n relax myself~~~

- taiwan sausage and fried chicken as dinner

- reach home at 1030pm - rest awhile, refresh and continue IDA
- do do do, work work work, key in key in key in....

陪我熬夜的跳跳虎+洋参茶

22 July Wed
- do until morning 9am++ : 75%
- tot to nap awhile before attending ES ttrl
- nia seng nap until 11am, late n din turn up for ES, UNintentionally -.- sory Mr Lim -.-
- went fo Moral test : studied 0%
- study abit 45mins before going into lect hall - self-proclaimed as "Open-Book Test" muahahahha~~
- went on quite gud cz i rmb those i studied + open book test mar.. XD
- went home after test to continue with IDA
- took a short nap til 6pm++ den dinner with Brian - continue again at 9pm++
- key in, do SQL, ammend tis and tat : 90%

terrible look of my table @@

23 July Thurs
- 930am : 98%
- went to college for printing - 1045am : 100%
- submit IDA!! finally~~~~ -.-

tats my schedule, TIGHT n PACKED schedule. @@ wana pengsan dy...

went to McD for lunch.. used our vouchers, so FOC..!! haha~

Happy Meal ^^

u noe, eventually, i slept thr... on the table... teruk man~~

went to tutorial, straight away sleep thr, my head is heavy, eyes can HARDly open, oh god~~~ @@ terrible terrible terrible, damn tired lk a bird... -.- well, at least i woke up on the last 1 hour, n trying my best to listen attentively.
went to lecture too, concentrated alot during lecture =) but in the end, cant stand anymore, even for the last half hour @@ went home n sleep at 5pm++ until today

as u can see, i slept for NOT MORE THAN 5hours since Tues til Thursday. den slept for 12 hours non stop till today @@


24 July Fri
- having my SWEET date with mr Chow
- accidentally woke up at 4am++ - aunty came visit me >.<
- watch drama until 9am++ and continue dating with mr Chow - accidentally ffk Chen Chen
sory har... @@
- up finally, at last, at 12noon++
- damn hungry, lunch with Meng Zai at pv3
- sunny hot weather...

just love to capture my shadow ;)

- back home after lunch n continue to have my break...

I NEED ENTERTAINMENT . I NEED A BREAK . SERIOUSLY

~lets have a KitKat~ LoL!!

finally......

18 JuLy went back KL. tog uncle KT's car. before he came to pick me, went to the wet market - Pasar Pinji market (兵如港巴刹) with my mom. went to buy some lime and leaves for some "special purpose".. -.- lol~~

it was a LONG LONG time since i last went to the market. i tink it'c ountable by Y.E.A.R.S.. haha XD well, the stalls never change. the fish stall stil thr, pork stall stil so dirty, the roti canai stall still selling yummy roti, the frog(田鸡) stall still thr, selling big fat froggies, surrounded by kids whose face are terrified. LOL~~ those vegetables stall, chicken stall, etc.. i still rmb their location. haha~

usually, my mom wouldn't know all these kinda god-ghost thingy, but tat nite, wen i mentioned and told her wat i went thru, wat i saw, and wat i felt ==" instantly, she found and thought of many ways to deal with it..lol~~ i was kinda touched cz she reli helped me ALOT. this n tat. wow~~ O.O she even bought me a pot of 'lime' to plant at KL house.. haha ^^

*thx mom!!*

back to our journey, went to Kampar to fetch dearest n beloved aunty Molly =) slept all the way. thn stop by Bidor eat wan ton mee =) later on, sleep in car again. -.- hot sunny weather.. tsk tsk tsk...

reached KL, back home and settle down. brought home many things. Brand's chicken essence, lime, leaves, aunty molly's tong sui..haha



tons n tons n tonssss of ASSignments awaiting upon my arrival @@ oh god, they MISS me lk hell. waiting for me to take care of them, waiting me to complete them in time @@ siao~~

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20 JuLy i was told that HE discharged from hosp today. u noe wat's the hospital's name? its called Ipoh Specialist Centre (ISC) aka 大白鲨.医院 haha... reason being is its vv vv vv dAMN expensive!!! tsk tsk tsk~~

Doc said HE's recovering vv fast. tho the time i went to visit him, his stomach was abit big due to suffering fr urinating. HE is resting at home now. condition consider stabled. need to motinor HIS tempreature, whether got fever anot, in case got infection *touchwood*

at the meantime, HE stil needs to go back to hosp for antibiotic jabs, 3 times a day. 8am, 4pm, 10pm.. siao man~ -.-

i feel GLAD after knowing HE has been discharged fr hosp, finally. phew~~ altho HE still needs to get back hosp for jabs, its much better than staying IN the hosp. no nice food, no nice bed to sleep, everything not nice.....-.-

yet, i feel sorry for HIM, cz sudd got tis kinda sickness..HE removed his gall bladder cz there are Gallstones.(胆生石) aiks... take care ya~ will PRAY HARD for u.... ^^

Love you, grandpa
Love you, mom

Glad~~~

17 July o9
went home today. i dint LoST my way today. lol.. reached Puduraya and was up the bus on time. NOT late today =)
while on the way home, i was hoping tat everything will be fine, and most of all, HE is fine.
slept thru the whole journey.
hrm, look at my watch, 3pm. look outside the window, hrm, the place looks familiar.. its Simpang Pulai Toll. Reached here quite fast this trip.

3.40pm - reached Medan Gopeng Station



waited to be fetched home.


still hungry, my stomach is playing Soft Jazz. haa!
went to hospital straight after my mom fetched me. went to see HIM.

room no: 883; go buy ToTo..muahaha XD

the doc is checking on HIM. chat awhile with HIM, HE was tired. later on, HE slept. HIS facial expression was we rid, HIM face was screwed up tgt, as if HE's suffering. HIS hand was shaking and moving, like pushing away the things.
after HE woke up, i asked HIM what had HE dreamt? HE said HE was happy, with his friends, yumcha-ing at the DimSum restaurant. lol~~ thank god.

HEwas out from ICU, and in single-bed ward now. Condition is stabilized. Not to worry much.

thanx for ALL the prayers. appreciated =)


im glad tat i went home to visit HIM. else, i will REGRET for my whole life!